Symbiosis is a painting series depicting Kelp inspired by an under water photograph.
At the top of the new year, 2021, it became clear that I need to step it up when it comes to marketing Citrine Tangerine. With clarity came a wave of reality – This year was going to be filled with hard work. 2021 would be the hardest year of all because it was the one upon me! I was ready. I made a plan. Now is the time to put everything I've prepared into action. It was settled! I'd create small monthly collections featuring the birthstones. This way I could cut down on how many pieces of jewelry I create but keep the website updated frequently enough to keep it interesting. These monthly collections inspired beauty looks for self portraits, new blog posts, crystal readings, and fresh ideas for product photography. Here we are 8 months down and it's been rewarding. So much good has happened. The gratitude I feel is insurmountable. I'll never forget the love.
When the May Collection came around I had no idea the impact and inspiration Emeralds would bring to light. It was late April when I started designing pieces, photographing jewelry, and recording the Crystal Reading from The Book Of Stones - when inspiration struck. The photographs from this collection are memorable. It was the way the green of Craig's tumbled raw emeralds illuminated in the sunlight. I'd also made two electro-formed Moldavite rings and a few new Herkimer Diamond rings too. Inspiration must have been in the air.
For some reason the word 'Symbiosis' popped into my head. Why was this word suddenly present in my mind? It was like I found a 'pocket' of consciousness. Soon I was pondering how we as humans relate to one another, animals, objects and the planet, I recalled many years ago how concept of Symbiosis was introduced as a concept in school. We discussed different kinds of Symbiosis – Mutualism being one I want to be part of as a global community member. But even parasitic Symbiosis is an inherently necessary aspect of how our complex planet operates.
Moving into this tangent focused around the concepts of Symbiosis I found an incredibly intriguing photograph of Kelp. This photograph was the beginning of a deep pondering on the Symbiosis humanity has with Oceans and their life forms, specifically Kelp. These green and alien like organisms reminded me of the links connecting my jewelry designs. Their growths, one on top of the other, reminded me of how we build ourselves in years at a time. Their tendrils also remind me of DNA for some reason. I discovered Kelp are not plants but a Heterokont. This word made me laugh a bit. Kelp are part of the order Laminariales. Our oceans are responsible for a substantial amount of our breathable Oxygen. Some people eat Kelp for health benefits. Large bodies of water are sources of relaxation, memories, and travel. Our oceans remind me of power. They remind me of the vastness of our planet and just how small we humans are.
'Seaweed' prior to this moment was a source of irrational fear rooting from my childhood. Nothing in particular happened to me regarding sea weed, I just did not like it! Swimming in Northern Michigan's fresh water lakes such as Higgins Lake or Lake Huron afforded me the privilege of crystal clear waters. If the water was full of long tendrils, good luck getting me in there! It just always freaked me out not knowing what was below. Never before had I seen Kelp in the light that underwater photographs of Laminariales shined on their beauty. Pure Green and Blue rays of color. Simply breath taking. Gorgeous. Stunning. This is when I knew something was emerging from my soul. I just had to paint these out of this world pictures. Like every other time I tried something new, the first pieces were NOT what I imagined but it was the start of decompressing from the lock downs in 2020.
What a year 2020 was... Nothing went as planned but painting kept me sane when I couldn't travel. I planned for another time, some time in the future... Painting kept my imagination alive. It brought color, imagination, and adventure into a very traumatizing and still year. Never did I think painting would be therapeutic but this was just one of many discoveries made last year. The creative community on a global level banded together in such a beneficial way. I am so grateful for everyone I met during these times and to have participated in several 'Lockdown Exhibitions'. It sparked a new connection with painting that is alive in this latest series of works.
There are several photographs of kelp that made me want to go somewhere new. Some where I've never gone before and perhaps I never will be able to go, to an ocean forest filled with kelp -- To experience the order of Laminariales from the ocean floor looking up. After a while my imagination took control. I hope you're able to dive into the atmospheres of this series. It is my intention that you feel more calm, more alive, and to spark your curiosity with this series. Our world is truly a beautiful place to behold. Our imaginations are powerful tools to be used for our advantage. Allow your mind to flow and extend, kind of like the laminariales some of which reach 120 feet in length. Thank you for being here.
Welcoming May with a fresh collection featuring Raw Emerald - May's Birthstone. The energy and word that comes to mind with this collection is Symbiosis. The greens and black values of raw emerald remind me of growth as well. When I think of symbiosis - relationships are the centerpiece. This can mean relationships with ourselves, one another, the world, our environment, specific objects -- all of it. Not all of our relationships will be romantic or even with people. Not all of our relationships will be happy or cohesive. Some are more spiritual or metaphysical. An important relationship to note is the one you have with yourself.
I've been thinking a lot about the relationships in my life and how I can improve or work on them to become more peaceful -- even if it's not outwardly beneficial to me. Even if the improvements aren't so much as actions but realizations. All perspectives and experiences are valid, even if we don't agree and beyond that, we all still have a right to live a happy life; regardless of our disagreements. Always being 'liked' is not what is best for us or the world for that matter.
It's important that we disagree, have a solid debate, and still live symbiotically. We don't need to tear one another or ourselves down for being different. Our differences have so much potential to improve our world. These are keys to finding middle ground that might suit us all. That's our ability and privilege as conscious beings. It's all about how we channel our energy. (Yes YOU can channel YOUR energy into the changes you want to see, even in your lifestyle or across the globe!)
That's why this collection also reminds me of growth. Not just because of the color palette but because of the energy emitting from the gemstone Emerald. Growth is important to focus on but also necessary for us to mature and evolve! The feeling of growth is not always pleasant but the benefits of working with your growth instead of against it is... Organic. It's our inherent ability to grow. Think about it, we are constantly reproducing cells in our bodies, thoughts in our minds, making actions, and creating 'things'. The luscious greens of Emerald remind me of the freshness and strength of growing. The naturalness of it. It's okay for us to change. We don't have to stay the same and in fact, from one moment to the next, we literally aren't the same!
This collection is inviting us to embrace ourselves for our uniqueness and inherent ability to grow all the time. It is also encouraging us to embrace that quality in one another! We can change and others do too! It is happening all the time. Know that we assist one another as well as ourselves through moments of transition. There are times when we are leaders by example; others when we learn from what we watch. Never fear standing out or being on your own. It can be an incredibly valuable lesson for yourself and anyone who may see what you're doing. We have the power to speak to one another from a place of love, experience, and wisdom. Share your experiences with the world, when you can. It could save us all or even change the world one person at a time. Being different is valuable AND NATURAL. Thinking for yourself should not exclude you from the world or its communities. This is how we can generate an inclusive future. Embracing that naturalness of growth, change, and our differences from one moment to the next! <3
I hope you are blessed with abundance in your scarce areas.
Be well, laugh lots, find reasons to smile.
One of the biggest mysteries in the jewelry industry is not knowing where our gemstones come from. Gemstones form all over the earth but when you purchase a crystal from a metaphysical shop, buy beads from a craft store or perhaps you use Etsy or some combination of resources to acquire any kind of gem your heart desires; Where do all the gems come from? They come from many places, all over the globe but why is it so hard to know the origin of our gems? Some locations are better than others at labeling localities. Is it because no one cares? Maybe it doesn’t matter? They certainly all can’t come from slave labor or corrupt governments. In my experience independent people, small businesses or artisans are the majority when it comes to sourcing gems. But why is it so hard to know where every specific gem comes from when we acquire them? Is it important?
What I understand, gemstones come from all over the world, are sought after by many, and distributed in many ways by many people. Most people I’ve met who sell gemstones are very down to earth. Some are spiritual, some are educational when it comes to gemstones. While being part of the industry, as what some may call an up & coming jewelry designer, I’ve noticed that there’s a slight divide between people who create with ‘base metals’ and those who create with ‘fine metals’. Some designers use all kinds of materials, a bit of each. The most apparent difference is the price between 'fine' materials and basically everything else. 'Fine' metal jewelry is a much higher price point because the materials cost more. This slight divide also manifests with ‘quality’ and type of gemstones used while designing. There’s another layer to this divide in which people and gemstones are exploited for profit because of the demand for these materials which are labeled as ‘fine’. Governments, royalty, military leaders, businesses, can become incredibly unjust when it comes to claiming Gold and Diamonds as their own, for example. Modern awareness of this murderous greed have become quite the topic of discussion in the jewelry industry, especially in the ‘Fine’ jewelry section of the industry where the 'fine' materials are in demand. At the moment there’s a call to action to be ‘responsible’, ‘ethical’, or to be transparent with your sourcing.
This kind of movement was easy to understand for me because I tapped into Fashion Revolution around 2016. At this time I stopped shopping for clothing in the retail environment. I made a conscious choice to thrift or swap for clothes. When I can, I support small local fashion designers. These kinds of topics have been at the forefront of my mind for many years and I’d wondered how to include these ideas into my jewelry design process. One way I did was by using beads donated to me over the years or buying thrifted to up-cycle.
The idea to be ‘ethical and responsible’ is definitely appealing but what does that mean for small businesses like Citrine Tangerine? Many people wonder what these terms even mean and if they really mean anything.
When I first studied this concept of ‘responsible jewelry design’ or sourcing, I can’t lie, I laughed at the hypocrisy! How can people who can afford gold and fine gemstones not question their own contribution to the demand? Not question their own destruction of the planet and its people? How can you claim to be ethical but want to work with materials that people are being exploited for across the globe!? But after another moment I asked myself how could I possibly be ‘ethical’ or ‘responsible’ if I am sourcing materials that are destructively plucked from the earth? At this point I’d stumbled into a full blow existential crisis. I have to stop making jewelry! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
After calming down and returning to my rational mind, I decided quitting is not an option. How can I be ‘ethical’ and ‘responsible’ while sourcing my materials? Thinking more deeply about it is a great first step! I took another step forward in 2019 when Craig and I drove out to New York to teach ourselves how to mine for gemstones that are native to this land mass. We were inspired by The Crystal Collector and a few other videos we saw online of people cracking open rocks to discover sparkly double terminated quartz. I also don't use 'fine' quality gemstones at this time, which helps keeps costs down for everyone and doesn't contribute to the greed affiliated with 'fine' graded gemstones. We took another step when we learned that drilling holes in gemstones is NOT an easy task. This experimentation resulted in a tremendous respect for those who make beads and cut stones. And another step forward when deciding to source gemstones from independent miners, businesses, and people.
It’s not always easy to make this choice. The price of materials greatly increases but in my opinion it's totally worth it when you can connect with trustworthy businesses. I think it also has to do with how far the materials have traveled and how many people they moved through before you find them. A few times I've felt completely disregarded by people who source and sell 'responsible & ethical' gemstones. It feel like some businesses won't give me the time of day! It's very strange but I suppose there are unprofessional people every where! Who knows why. To be honest, I assume it’s because I don’t work in ‘fine’ metals or gemstones that cost me thousands of dollars to purchase. I'm hesitant to work in these materials because it's so hard to 'ethically' source them. I also don't have a market for pieces that cost $1,000 + yet. Maybe in another 5 years or so! I am VERY GRATEFUL for the new connections I do have now and those who have been kind enough to connect with me through Citrine Tangerine. Ultimately I use this movement as inspiration and a way to grow stronger and get better at what I do. My dreams are to be a respected and adored gemstone jewelry company. I don't think there is any respect in not bringing issues of this industry into the awareness of our industry and people who purchase them. Especially if we understand that each gem has energy. A lot of people, including myself, tap into the vibration of gemstones for healing and to enhance our experience in life. I want to know where my gems come from and I'd honestly prefer to source the directly from people or with my own two hands from the earth.
To me, creating in small batches and sourcing gemstones from individuals is one of the most ‘responsible’ and ‘ethical’ ways to be. Especially because we live in a capitalist society where we can’t stop making or spending money and gigantic corporations have endless amounts of cash to silence any unwanted noise. When we support small and independent business, we are cultivating a global community. It’s the mass purchasing of fine gems, the land snatching of gem rich lands from people that’s truly the problem. If we don’t know where our gems come from, how can we be sure that they were not mined in an inhuman way? I honestly have no idea other than I don't purchase controversial and 'fine' grade gemstones such as Diamonds, Emeralds, and Rubies. I'll purchase the raw quality of them though which are not as highly valued or sought after by corrupted people & companies. I know a lot of gemstones in the USA are purchased whole sale from gigantic global events such as ‘The Tuscan Gem Show’. I’ve never had the opportunity to go. But some day! There are an abundance of gemstones you can mine for or source yourself right here in the USA.
I know that mining for gemstones is not easy at all. It’s definitely not as pleasant as walking on the beach searching for different colors or interesting details. We’ve traveled to NY to get our hands dirty mining for gemstones, two years in a row, soon to be three years. It’s not easy to do this kind of work and some times you don’t find anything!! This experience makes me feel so much more for the humans who mine for the gemstones available on the market today. It seems the people who extract our gemstones from the earth are the least of anyone’s concern in the supply chain. The folks involved in the mining, faceting, and bead making end of the process definitely deserve a fair wage! This also leads me into another question:
Who is making our beads? How deep should we go back into the supply chain? Should we always assume people shaping our beads are underpaid or working unsafely? While attending a conference about creating a ‘responsible’ jewelry industry, I was made aware of an illness called silicosis. This illness comes from breathing in silicates when drilling into or faceting gemstones. To my understanding, there are two ways; wet and dry. The wet method includes water, which greatly reduces, if not removes the silicates from flying through the air. The dry method is yes, without water, and the particles of silicates fly through the air. Without proper facial covering, you are at risk of breathing these silicates in, resulting in a painful lung illness that will eventually lead to death depending on your length of exposure. Once learning about this my first though is, OKAY I’ll make my own beads. But like I mentioned before, drilling into stones is no easy task. There are proper machines and procedures for these kinds of tasks. The equipment requires space, and is expensive! There are people who've been creating gemstone beads for many years. It’s impossible for me to think I could acquire all the equipment, learn these processes, and source my own rough in any kind of short period of time. There are other ways to make beads as well.
Who are we to assume all gemstone bead companies are unsafe and putting workers at risk? How could we possibly know? Being aware of the potential abuses and risks associated with our supply chain is definitely important. But painting a picture that all beads come from abusive working conditions is wrong and potentially damaging to the people who are independently creating or businesses who aren’t harmful to people. The important aspect of this is to make sure we are more conscious of our buying choices and doing research to make better choices. One person I trust for global information exposing the truths of exploitation in the gem industry is Yianni Melas aka GEMEXPLORER. Definitely worth following on instagram.
What am I doing to contribute to some small amount of change with my limited capital and resources? I mentioned a few things above but let me reiterate! For the past two years I’ve sourced gems from localities in the USA with my own to hands. Craig and I are heading out on another adventure to source gemstones ourselves this year too. Cracking rocks open with sledge hammers and chisels. We are hoping to go to another couple locations in the USA to mine this year too. I am making choices to source gems from companies like Anza Gems, who source from women in Africa. We've also sources from a small independent mine located in Brazil called Nature's Geometry. Glenn Lehrer and his story of being a self taught gem carver is also an influence in my works. I’m creating much smaller amounts of jewelry, purchasing less material, and sourcing with intention. I am also educating myself on the jewelry industry, its issues, and thinking of ways we can advance. Another way to be more mindful while designing is to remake old jewelry or use beads from old broken jewelry or thrifted jewelry. Do any ideas come to your mind? I’d love to start a conversation with you about these topics but I understand if these topics are not your cup of tea! Maybe you feel like this post has no information and just kind of went in a circle? Welcome to my world! It is hard to know when gems are moving so quickly from person to person across the globe!
What are my goals for the future? To travel through out the USA to source all kinds of gemstones available to us here. Over time extending our sourcing to other localities internationally. I’d also love to find people to directly work with for sourcing/creating beads. This would be a powerful partnership. I want to learn how to make my own beads and acquire space / equipment to make my own beads. On the topic of space I’m looking to open a space that would house my jewelry studio and is a retail space for gemstones, jewelry, and classes.
Welcome to the Transmutation Collection by Citrine Tangerine. This collection was released on the Fall Equinox to honor the change of season. I broke the entire collection into phases, for continuous release and to give each piece a little extra time to be appreciated.
This collection is based on the action of personal Transmutation. I invite you to set intentions that manifest through transformative action leading to personal growth. Lets plant some new seeds, nurture our already budding ideas and honor this great seasonal change.
Smokey Quartz is the feature stone of this collection for two reasons; its healing energies and its color range. (I made a crystal reading on Smokey Quartz from The Book Of Stones available on Youtube)
As you may know, gemstones are millions of years old, holding ancient wisdom and healing properties as well. It is proven that nature heals us and gemstones are an impressive part of nature. Meditations and affirmations are proven to improve our health and have been bonded with crystals for hundreds of years. Their crystal forms are sacred. It’s no wonder we collect and adorn ourselves with them.
When I dove into the healing properties of Smokey Quartz, I knew as a collective, we needed more of this stone in our lives. Here’s a short write up from what I read in The Book Of Stones:
“Crystal Smokey Quartz
Chakra Root 1st
Transmutation of negative energies,
Manifestation of one’s dreams and inspirations
Affirmation I am grounded and centered in my physical body and I work step-by-step to achieve my goals
Smokey Quartz is a premier grounding stone. It can help even the spaciest of individuals find their ‘land legs’. It is one of the most powerful grounding and clearing stones. Like the smoke from a sage bundle, the energy of Smokey Quartz cleanses and clears the aura and energetic systems. It enables negative energies to be clarified so they may become usable and healthy once again.
Spirit Smokey Quartz is a spiritual grounding stone, helping one to receive and utilize more high frequency energy. It assists one in aligning the physical body with an expanded range of light frequencies and is both purifying and protective.
Emotion Smokey Quartz is a wonderful friend for those who resist being embodied. It can help one feel more engaged in the world and capable of creating or changing one’s reality.
Physical Smokey Quartz is best used to counter the negative effects of radiation, including sunburn, exposure to radioactive materials, medical radiation therapy, and exposure to focused electromagnetic fields.”
You can see it cleanses, purifies, grounds, and removes negative or toxic energy from the aura, clearing the room and transmutes into a productive, organized and uplifting energy. This is a powerful action for a gemstone to assist us with. It literally encourages us to take the higher route. It reminds us of the brighter side and can even take us out of our most depressive mental states.
Smokey Quartz coloring ranges from soft gray to deep black. You can also get smokey versions of most quartz variety crystals such as amethyst and citrine. Gray scale is a fantastic way to amplify color in any visual works. I used this to play with colorful gemstones with smokey quartz as their spotlight counter part. Who doesn’t love a vibrant pop of color? Most of the Smokey Quartz beads in this collection are middle gray but the shapes and textures of the beads vary. Some of them are raw chunks, others highly polished, but all are about the same tone of gray.
It is my intention to connect you with a powerful and abundant stone that can help us transmute into our best selves by clearing the air of any bad energies. What does transmutation mean? This word was brought to my attention by Smokey Quartz. It has a few contexts but the concept is always the same. Transmutation ‘is the action of changing or the state of being changed into another form.’ In physics this is done by nuclear bombardment or radioactive decay. In history and biology it’s the conversion or transformation of one species into another. There is also reference to transmutation in alchemy.
The concept is similar with intention setting, although we are not being bombarded by nuclear physics or changing from one human into another per-say, we have the ability to change and transform our bodies, minds, and paths in life by our actions. We can with a bit practicality, organization, cleansing, and protection, achieve our goals, dreams and aspirations. Smokey Quartz can be the reminder we all need to accomplish gigantic tasks! We can change. We can be leaders. But we have to LEAD by example and not follow in the footsteps of those who predate us. The gemstones can inspire us to go beyond what our human environment has to offer when we tap into their frequencies.
Hi, My name is Citrine, I love to paint and make jewelry. I love gemstones, traveling, fashion, style, fine art, skinny dipping, and making delicious food. I live by optimism and gratitude. Generosity is inherent in the artist lifestyle and I stand by that principle. My foundation is self exploration, self portraits, and photography. It is my destiny to inspire and create a sense of joy.